What She Wont Say

It seemed just yesterday we were in each others arms. Just yesterday we could not live without each others Love. Now suddenly it's hard to just get a glimpse of you.

How did this happen, how could you have taken this so far to test the shackles by which I am chained. They have not broken, I am not set free. The ways I tried have not worked out for me. Impossible it seems to do what pleased you at the time. The harsh comments and missing ILoveYous, stacked up to build against me.

Through trial I found out, efforts were not high enough, at least you got what you have wanted. You did realize the things which mattered more to you. Going out and trying something new, you found someone you claim to see as perfect.

Starting to see the way your answers changed into self defensive accusations. Asking you a question used to be so easy, however now it feels like you have something there to conceal. Afraid to know the truth and wanting to find out for sure was something I could not face until right now, because I learned the pain of truth I value more than comfort of deceit.

You will not tell me this I know, so it's another thing I figure out alone. You make it seem to everyone that we are clearly over. However to me you try to make it stay the same, as if not to lose me from your grasp. I have realized now, I have been nothing but a safety rope for you to tug if things don't work out as you are expecting them to.

You wouldn't believe the pain you've caused me from planning things behind what you let me know. With someone else spending your days. It's sad it is, the way things happened now. I sit alone and then begin to think, to ponder why you could not tell me the way things were going down.

If you told me earlier the things you wanted instead of the lies, maybe you never would have wasted the time you tell me is one year. This has been the worst November that I could imagine yet. Now things I know you're doing, I really wish I didn't, with who you're spending time now after work instead of me.

It hurts too much, I really wish I did not know and kept things like the way you did for me. To keep me in the darkness and tell me things you think I want to hear. Hard to believe that all I wanted out of this was Love, what I got though is a story all its own. I guess some things were meant to be forgotten, while this one thing remains afloat in every memory and thought.